hightmares

by ruffian

hightmares liner notes – PLEASE READ BEFORE LISTENING

hightmares is a lyrically focused and sample-based concept album about one’s existential journey through the uncertainty of the psyche. As a result of mind-altering substances and philosophical musings, the protagonist discovers the tenuous relationship between sanity and lucidity, and is confronted with the impossible task of salvaging a crumbling sense of the self. When you doubt the core of who you are, how do you even begin to form opinions about anything else? The self is in free fall, with no basis to stand firmly upon, reality collapses in upon itself and anxiety rises. The past becomes a romanticized haven, the present becomes a living nightmare, and the future is cast in thickening shroud of uncertainty. All objectivity is silenced by a frantic, nagging and deafening subjectivity, and doubt reigns supreme. When you question your own existence, you question the existence of everything around you, and everything that made you who you are, thus creating a self-perpetuating cycle of perceived insanity. There is no escape from the self, only an interminable process of discovery and acceptance.

Track List:

CHAPTER I: “The Swallowing of Reality”
tracks #1-4

CHAPTER II: “The Loss of Lucidity”
tracks #5-8

CHAPTER III: “The Sobering of Insanity”
tracks #9-13

Due to a lack of proper recording equipment this album is intended for headphones. Please don’t listen to it on speakers, or else it might (it will) sound like complete and utter shit. Also, it is an immersive and cohesive concept album, a.k.a. a journey, so it is recommended that in order to get the full experience you listen to the entire album in one sitting. This album is a mixture of spoken word, hip-hop and glo-fi, so I like to call it spoken glo-hop, but feel free to call it whatever you want. To fit the album’s theme the lyrics have been intentionally muddied, but seeing how it is a lyrically driven experience, for your listening pleasure the lyrics for each track can be found by clicking on the link of each individual song.

This album was mixed and mastered by ruffian and SIRreal.
It was recorded in Fullerton, CA and Long Beach, CA using a 2009 version of Garageband, the Garageband App, and Audacity.
Original music production in full by SIRreal on tracks 1, 3, & 10.
Original music production in full by ruffian on track 13.
All other partial production as listed.
All of the lyrics were written by those who perform them.
Album artwork by ruffian.

This album wouldn’t have been possible without the shoulders of the giants upon who I unknowingly stood. A list of said giants can be found under the description of each individual track. Thank you for existing, making art, and spreading knowledge that has inspired me, and please don’t feel the need to sue me for copyright infringement.

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hightmares liner notes – PLEASE READ BEFORE LISTENING

hightmares is a lyrically focused and sample-based concept album about one’s existential journey through the uncertainty of the psyche. As a result of mind-altering substances and philosophical musings, the protagonist discovers the tenuous relationship between sanity and lucidity, and is confronted with the impossible task of salvaging a crumbling sense of the self. When you doubt the core of who you are, how do you even begin to form opinions about anything else? The self is in free fall, with no basis to stand firmly upon, reality collapses in upon itself and anxiety rises. The past becomes a romanticized haven, the present becomes a living nightmare, and the future is cast in thickening shroud of uncertainty. All objectivity is silenced by a frantic, nagging and deafening subjectivity, and doubt reigns supreme. When you question your own existence, you question the existence of everything around you, and everything that made you who you are, thus creating a self-perpetuating cycle of perceived insanity. There is no escape from the self, only an interminable process of discovery and acceptance.

Track List:

CHAPTER I: “The Swallowing of Reality”
tracks #1-4

CHAPTER II: “The Loss of Lucidity”
tracks #5-8

CHAPTER III: “The Sobering of Insanity”
tracks #9-13

Due to a lack of proper recording equipment this album is intended for headphones. Please don’t listen to it on speakers, or else it might (it will) sound like complete and utter shit. Also, it is an immersive and cohesive concept album, a.k.a. a journey, so it is recommended that in order to get the full experience you listen to the entire album in one sitting. This album is a mixture of spoken word, hip-hop and glo-fi, so I like to call it spoken glo-hop, but feel free to call it whatever you want. To fit the album’s theme the lyrics have been intentionally muddied, but seeing how it is a lyrically driven experience, for your listening pleasure the lyrics for each track can be found by clicking on the link of each individual song.

This album was mixed and mastered by ruffian and SIRreal.
It was recorded in Fullerton, CA and Long Beach, CA using a 2009 version of Garageband, the Garageband App, and Audacity.
Original music production in full by SIRreal on tracks 1, 3, & 10.
Original music production in full by ruffian on track 13.
All other partial production as listed.
All of the lyrics were written by those who perform them.
Album artwork by ruffian.

This album wouldn’t have been possible without the shoulders of the giants upon who I unknowingly stood. A list of said giants can be found under the description of each individual track. Thank you for existing, making art, and spreading knowledge that has inspired me, and please don’t feel the need to sue me for copyright infringement.