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As I continue to progress on my journey towards emotional healing I find that the list of thoughts, emotions and behaviors for which I can now laugh at and with my former self is growing significantly longer. Not laugh with a mean or judgmental laugh you understand, of course I remember and can now even empathize with my former self; I still remember the well reasoned arguments for each individual dysfunction though. I remember the vicious lies my ego told in order to defend it's shamed and beaten existence and that's what I laugh at now. I laugh with the knowledge that "WE" (my ego and me) are both parts of the same "I", and I laugh with the knowledge that that-forever-eight-year-old part of me just can't be fucking trusted -- EVER!!! He's still hurting and that is ok, in fact his pain will always be part of who I am but now I love him -- he's no longer alone and even though he will always be a scheming, lying little fucker, together and armed with that knowledge WE are fantastic.