Thu, 23 Apr 2026 21:44:44 +0200 https://hearthis.at/celogen/ en-EN contact@hearthis.at contact@hearthis.at https://hearthis.at/celogen/ https://img.hearthis.at/8/0/6/_/uploads/9689878/image_user/w1400_h1400_q70_ptrue_v2_----cropped_1600483288608.jpg no no https://hearthis.at/celogen/emergency-exit/ (every young apology, every young apology)
that those empty evenings set you free
(every word you’ll never read, every word you’ll never read)
well I am just bursting with excitement
(every young apology, every young apology)
for you to see what I know you’ll see
(last you ever saw of me, last you ever saw of me
asked you to remember, just trying to jog your memory)

emergency exit
loops around on itself
emergency exit

if you could face the mess you made, then
I could play the shrieking maiden
table tapdance, swearing I’ve seen a ghost

if you could bear the soul that saw you
before this form took hold,
recalls who you were when it mattered much more

(you once mattered much more)]]> (every young apology, every young apology)
that those empty evenings set you free
(every word you’ll never read, every word you’ll never read)
well I am just bursting with excitement
(every young apology, every young apology)
for you to see what I know you’ll see
(last you ever saw of me, last you ever saw of me
asked you to remember, just trying to jog your memory)

emergency exit
loops around on itself
emergency exit

if you could face the mess you made, then
I could play the shrieking maiden
table tapdance, swearing I’ve seen a ghost

if you could bear the soul that saw you
before this form took hold,
recalls who you were when it mattered much more

(you once mattered much more)]]> 5139112 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:32:00 +0200 2020-09-18T16:32:00+02:00 3:49 https://hearthis.at/celogen/siren-tell-me/ and of course I’ll make it true
I’m a lot like you,
I get dragged right through

siren, when our pasts are hounding me
and of course the locks are changed
I throw them your name
it puts them back at bay

and if it seems like I am panicked, I am handpicked
well I’m still learning to right your wrongs
for now I just tiptoe over the damage done
I’ll waste your time next time I need someone,
I’ll waste your time next time I need someone

siren, if there’s someone calling you
then I’m glad you’ve made new friends
you’re a lot like them,
leaving home at ten

and if I could point out our differences,
yeah, if I may be so bold,
you think you’re in control
you think I don’t deserve more
you think it’s you or alone

and if it seems like I am panicked, I am handpicked
I’m a caricature of one who can be loved
I just hold the same doe-eyed smile til your anger’s done
I’ll waste your time next time I need someone,
I’ll waste your time next time I need someone

siren, tell me what I’ve done this time
I swear I’ll make it up to you
I know you’ll pull me through,
I am a lot like you]]> and of course I’ll make it true
I’m a lot like you,
I get dragged right through

siren, when our pasts are hounding me
and of course the locks are changed
I throw them your name
it puts them back at bay

and if it seems like I am panicked, I am handpicked
well I’m still learning to right your wrongs
for now I just tiptoe over the damage done
I’ll waste your time next time I need someone,
I’ll waste your time next time I need someone

siren, if there’s someone calling you
then I’m glad you’ve made new friends
you’re a lot like them,
leaving home at ten

and if I could point out our differences,
yeah, if I may be so bold,
you think you’re in control
you think I don’t deserve more
you think it’s you or alone

and if it seems like I am panicked, I am handpicked
I’m a caricature of one who can be loved
I just hold the same doe-eyed smile til your anger’s done
I’ll waste your time next time I need someone,
I’ll waste your time next time I need someone

siren, tell me what I’ve done this time
I swear I’ll make it up to you
I know you’ll pull me through,
I am a lot like you]]> 5139113 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:31:57 +0200 2020-09-18T16:31:57+02:00 3:52 https://hearthis.at/celogen/yes-september-blanket/ so unprepared, so unaware
too close to take in the daydreams you had lost
you were free from that smothered world, but what did it cost?

under fuzzy ring road skies
letting leaves blow through your body
like so much sugar glass and ash

september blanket holds, the glimpse of the tiredest star
september blanket holds, the glimpse you were sure you’d caught
you swore that the future’d found you, but you were still so very small

it was good to be awash in golden sun
setting over places that had held you once
and as the heat washed out the departing silhouettes
you took whatever you could get from their old homes
little lamplights every bit as warm as you would know

in the damp and bleary morning
like a baby waking up
across the valley to real life

the trouble with transcendence is passing through time and space
the trouble with being above it is they can’t make out your face
and when all the woodsmoke clears, there’s still so much you haven’t replaced

(no
still not whole
built by ghosts
for ghosts)

september blanket holds, a promise you thought you‘d made
september blanket holds, a sovereign for just one day
you swore you would have it all, yeah, but that was one hell of a sudden change

it was good to be so nervous, so naive
it was good to be so nervous, so naive]]> so unprepared, so unaware
too close to take in the daydreams you had lost
you were free from that smothered world, but what did it cost?

under fuzzy ring road skies
letting leaves blow through your body
like so much sugar glass and ash

september blanket holds, the glimpse of the tiredest star
september blanket holds, the glimpse you were sure you’d caught
you swore that the future’d found you, but you were still so very small

it was good to be awash in golden sun
setting over places that had held you once
and as the heat washed out the departing silhouettes
you took whatever you could get from their old homes
little lamplights every bit as warm as you would know

in the damp and bleary morning
like a baby waking up
across the valley to real life

the trouble with transcendence is passing through time and space
the trouble with being above it is they can’t make out your face
and when all the woodsmoke clears, there’s still so much you haven’t replaced

(no
still not whole
built by ghosts
for ghosts)

september blanket holds, a promise you thought you‘d made
september blanket holds, a sovereign for just one day
you swore you would have it all, yeah, but that was one hell of a sudden change

it was good to be so nervous, so naive
it was good to be so nervous, so naive]]> 5139114 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:31:54 +0200 2020-09-18T16:31:54+02:00 3:47 https://hearthis.at/celogen/inside-your-concrete-home/ all through the summer she grew mile after mile
then once the days got shorter she woke up
and walked to school with a smile

pictures where you stood on a pedestal and grinned
fall in the flood to salt the earth and birth the wind
when everything you love is just in reach
you’ll never come back again

so cozy up and start a new decade
inside your concrete home
it’ll take at least ten years
to know if you’re alone

all through the summer she grew mile after mile
she watched the rivers grip our necks with her trademark lack of guile
her head it brimmed so full of plans
to skip along to safety with a smile

pictures where you stood on a pedestal and dreamt
I can’t provide the detail, I just know what it meant
with no way to prove
that it was ever more than mythology ever again
with no way to summon back
the idiots we both had been way back when

so cozy up and start a new decade
inside your concrete home
it’ll take at least ten years
to know if you’re alone

and you could try to start anew
a town with reason to love you
but you’re the same
you won’t see any change

and you could try to start anew
a town that by default loves you
but you’re the same
you’ll only give them their own claim

so close them out and start a new decade
with those who you still own
it’ll take at least ten years
to notice you’re alone]]> all through the summer she grew mile after mile
then once the days got shorter she woke up
and walked to school with a smile

pictures where you stood on a pedestal and grinned
fall in the flood to salt the earth and birth the wind
when everything you love is just in reach
you’ll never come back again

so cozy up and start a new decade
inside your concrete home
it’ll take at least ten years
to know if you’re alone

all through the summer she grew mile after mile
she watched the rivers grip our necks with her trademark lack of guile
her head it brimmed so full of plans
to skip along to safety with a smile

pictures where you stood on a pedestal and dreamt
I can’t provide the detail, I just know what it meant
with no way to prove
that it was ever more than mythology ever again
with no way to summon back
the idiots we both had been way back when

so cozy up and start a new decade
inside your concrete home
it’ll take at least ten years
to know if you’re alone

and you could try to start anew
a town with reason to love you
but you’re the same
you won’t see any change

and you could try to start anew
a town that by default loves you
but you’re the same
you’ll only give them their own claim

so close them out and start a new decade
with those who you still own
it’ll take at least ten years
to notice you’re alone]]> 5139115 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:31:50 +0200 2020-09-18T16:31:50+02:00 3:44 https://hearthis.at/celogen/wind-up-and-collapse-passenger-stare/ the fading story of the war you fought
above the beds of kind young lovers your web had caught
the glimmering streets they walked
where they buried their pearls of dew
to seed the last place you'd ever see them full in bloom

and you can still pretend
their love won't be enough for them in the end
they'll need you someday, though they disappeared so soon

the wind-up and collapse
out through the ceiling to the dark backyards
where you would lay each night, a vandal with glowing eyes
and I know I never asked you to remember
but I hope you'd think of me
to blink and to miss things you people won't believe

and it's been so long
since you were pressed up to the wall
waiting just to catch one fleeting laugh
and you can still pretend
the big joke you pulled was lost on them
it was dumb. the moment's passed. they don't know what they missed.

(the passenger stare as I pressed through
you tried to reach out but I left you
oh, the night your anchor rose

the passenger stare that you fell through
the shivering things I could tell you
oh, the night your anchor rose

the passenger stare as I passed through
the sleeping sleet tumbling past you
oh, the night your anger rose

the futures that you had seen through
and starless you saw they'd come true
streetlight snow, at last you just let go)]]> the fading story of the war you fought
above the beds of kind young lovers your web had caught
the glimmering streets they walked
where they buried their pearls of dew
to seed the last place you'd ever see them full in bloom

and you can still pretend
their love won't be enough for them in the end
they'll need you someday, though they disappeared so soon

the wind-up and collapse
out through the ceiling to the dark backyards
where you would lay each night, a vandal with glowing eyes
and I know I never asked you to remember
but I hope you'd think of me
to blink and to miss things you people won't believe

and it's been so long
since you were pressed up to the wall
waiting just to catch one fleeting laugh
and you can still pretend
the big joke you pulled was lost on them
it was dumb. the moment's passed. they don't know what they missed.

(the passenger stare as I pressed through
you tried to reach out but I left you
oh, the night your anchor rose

the passenger stare that you fell through
the shivering things I could tell you
oh, the night your anchor rose

the passenger stare as I passed through
the sleeping sleet tumbling past you
oh, the night your anger rose

the futures that you had seen through
and starless you saw they'd come true
streetlight snow, at last you just let go)]]> 5139116 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:31:47 +0200 2020-09-18T16:31:47+02:00 5:03 https://hearthis.at/celogen/refractory-lens/ I couldn't find a place that was comfy
kept moving but my body wouldn't couldn't cooperate properly
I no longer had my own physical form
I was a part of the universe
and every time I moved
the universe would move my body as well
turning my arms into staircases
and my legs would disappear and turn into objects
and I was just so tired
all I wanted to do was sleep
I just couldn't get comfy no matter what
couldn't get comfy in space cause I kept turning into staircases
I was there for so long
simultaneously ten seconds
simultaneously a millenium

something as ancient
yet probably
something as new
as a baby)]]> I couldn't find a place that was comfy
kept moving but my body wouldn't couldn't cooperate properly
I no longer had my own physical form
I was a part of the universe
and every time I moved
the universe would move my body as well
turning my arms into staircases
and my legs would disappear and turn into objects
and I was just so tired
all I wanted to do was sleep
I just couldn't get comfy no matter what
couldn't get comfy in space cause I kept turning into staircases
I was there for so long
simultaneously ten seconds
simultaneously a millenium

something as ancient
yet probably
something as new
as a baby)]]> 5139117 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:31:44 +0200 2020-09-18T16:31:44+02:00 2:23 https://hearthis.at/celogen/lilypad-lilypad/ with a tear where all your memories come undone

lilypad, one night I saw you pause
your voice broke mid sentence,
your weird little hands reached your eyes
I, I had forgotten what that was like

to believe, believe outside yourself
it is hard to say something honest
it is hard to say something honest

lilypad, the place where you were raised
I will bury these diaries
when the city repaves the street
I won’t let them belong to you or to me

and when you ask, no, never anyone
how the rain splashes up to your ankles
when god gives you the strength to run

to believe, believe outside yourself
it is hard to say something honest
it is hard to say something honest
how I long to say something honest

lilypad, so tired so very long
stepping out into the backyard
where the world goes on and on]]> with a tear where all your memories come undone

lilypad, one night I saw you pause
your voice broke mid sentence,
your weird little hands reached your eyes
I, I had forgotten what that was like

to believe, believe outside yourself
it is hard to say something honest
it is hard to say something honest

lilypad, the place where you were raised
I will bury these diaries
when the city repaves the street
I won’t let them belong to you or to me

and when you ask, no, never anyone
how the rain splashes up to your ankles
when god gives you the strength to run

to believe, believe outside yourself
it is hard to say something honest
it is hard to say something honest
how I long to say something honest

lilypad, so tired so very long
stepping out into the backyard
where the world goes on and on]]> 5139118 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:31:41 +0200 2020-09-18T16:31:41+02:00 5:00 https://hearthis.at/celogen/angelic-life-2/ you ever had to make was for that day
the torches you had raised through eternity
how you shivered, swearing, snowblind in your car
short goodbyes, prayers for acetone and stars
a map to where you think you are

the open mouth
your little spirit on a messy couch
well you told me how it tasted like the finer things
and you spat out all the hairs in your bordeaux
as I tried to picture the only love you'd ever known
delving deeper deeper til you were all alone

so dress up nice
it's your wedding day, the betrothed is in on ice
your lonely lifetime, not so cute on the inside
it can't feel like it did when we were young
when you were falling in and I split through the sun
the voices saying "drop the gun"

and now it doesn't matter where you go
they will be there, sucking up the train car smoke
it is the softest thing you've ever known
a tale told by a genius, full of silence, full of calm
you were always so assured you had a choice when they all called
no, you knew you never had a choice at all

and the wisp of smoke you'd been when your world would glisten
and the days you'd seen that no one could ever touch
no, no one could ever quite be enough

and you know, you'd be much more precious with a condition
yeah, the kind where you collapse and you can't stand up
so the care and the carry will feel just like love

(oftentimes, I take from the river,
or sit still and watch the water move the wheel;
only all of these aloe vera plants keep falling from the banks.
it's not just good for relieving sunburn;
it also lowers my blood sugar.
it’s a safe alternative to mouthwash, because of the natural vitamin C.
it kills harmful bacteria,
soothes my burning heart and my digestive disorder.
I take 1-3 oz at mealtime;
my skin has never been clearer.
you don’t need to talk to a doctor.
as for me and my car, we shall serve the Lord.)]]> you ever had to make was for that day
the torches you had raised through eternity
how you shivered, swearing, snowblind in your car
short goodbyes, prayers for acetone and stars
a map to where you think you are

the open mouth
your little spirit on a messy couch
well you told me how it tasted like the finer things
and you spat out all the hairs in your bordeaux
as I tried to picture the only love you'd ever known
delving deeper deeper til you were all alone

so dress up nice
it's your wedding day, the betrothed is in on ice
your lonely lifetime, not so cute on the inside
it can't feel like it did when we were young
when you were falling in and I split through the sun
the voices saying "drop the gun"

and now it doesn't matter where you go
they will be there, sucking up the train car smoke
it is the softest thing you've ever known
a tale told by a genius, full of silence, full of calm
you were always so assured you had a choice when they all called
no, you knew you never had a choice at all

and the wisp of smoke you'd been when your world would glisten
and the days you'd seen that no one could ever touch
no, no one could ever quite be enough

and you know, you'd be much more precious with a condition
yeah, the kind where you collapse and you can't stand up
so the care and the carry will feel just like love

(oftentimes, I take from the river,
or sit still and watch the water move the wheel;
only all of these aloe vera plants keep falling from the banks.
it's not just good for relieving sunburn;
it also lowers my blood sugar.
it’s a safe alternative to mouthwash, because of the natural vitamin C.
it kills harmful bacteria,
soothes my burning heart and my digestive disorder.
I take 1-3 oz at mealtime;
my skin has never been clearer.
you don’t need to talk to a doctor.
as for me and my car, we shall serve the Lord.)]]> 5139119 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:31:38 +0200 2020-09-18T16:31:38+02:00 5:34 https://hearthis.at/celogen/i-saw-three-cities/ all the visions passed through your gaze
when you were so sick on the streetline ablaze
sing me to sleep of what you used to see
and what will never be whole again
when you rose up to the kingdom for a day
tumbling softly through all of time and space

trust so fervently
trust so nervously
please try to trust in me

sing me to sleep of all the worlds you built
that no one could see but you
how they call you back to a place you once knew
a favourite colour that would swallow you
when your illness made you start to float
reaching up to where the lightning grows
reaching where it could speak with you alone

trust so fervently
trust so nervously
please try to trust in me

sing me to sleep of what it’s like to leave
to be wrapped in bandage and tape
this is the last fuss I will ever make
(I will be silent past today)
this is the last fuss I will ever make

oh, my long-lost friend
if you get sick again
oh, how I call your name
from deep in the place that knows you might not hear it someday

oh, but at night you stay
no, you are not afraid
oh, so I hold you close
and up towards your sleeping face, I whisper “don’t let go”]]> all the visions passed through your gaze
when you were so sick on the streetline ablaze
sing me to sleep of what you used to see
and what will never be whole again
when you rose up to the kingdom for a day
tumbling softly through all of time and space

trust so fervently
trust so nervously
please try to trust in me

sing me to sleep of all the worlds you built
that no one could see but you
how they call you back to a place you once knew
a favourite colour that would swallow you
when your illness made you start to float
reaching up to where the lightning grows
reaching where it could speak with you alone

trust so fervently
trust so nervously
please try to trust in me

sing me to sleep of what it’s like to leave
to be wrapped in bandage and tape
this is the last fuss I will ever make
(I will be silent past today)
this is the last fuss I will ever make

oh, my long-lost friend
if you get sick again
oh, how I call your name
from deep in the place that knows you might not hear it someday

oh, but at night you stay
no, you are not afraid
oh, so I hold you close
and up towards your sleeping face, I whisper “don’t let go”]]> 5139120 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:31:36 +0200 2020-09-18T16:31:36+02:00 4:37 https://hearthis.at/celogen/puppydog-smile/ clutching all the white noise you couldn't save
you shed a flood of tears
you carried out your bidding
it's all you've ever hidden
forgiven, forgotten, just yesterday

leaving, the one forever chasing butterflies
to swallow their wings in an innocent green
she was a priest when she was small
but she found the god she wanted
just someone who kept talking
loud enough to drown out the past

high above the rivers
that flow out and away from you
the people you've hurt and the people you've carried
they haven't stopped trying to get through
they're still trying their hardest to reach you

leaving, you breathe upon her fragile face so carefully
the one thing you can do to keep her warm
"when you slipped away to let me sleep,
I had the most amazing dream
I knew I'd be waiting here forever
but you, you were right there with me
and god was who you thought I used to be"

high above the rivers
tracing paths back to the love you never knew
the people who left little permanent traces
they haven't stopped trying to get through
"who ever said we know where we're all headed to?"

over all the burning reels of film
projected on the houses that stand so still
over all the burning reels of film
and all the sleeping secrets that lie there still]]> clutching all the white noise you couldn't save
you shed a flood of tears
you carried out your bidding
it's all you've ever hidden
forgiven, forgotten, just yesterday

leaving, the one forever chasing butterflies
to swallow their wings in an innocent green
she was a priest when she was small
but she found the god she wanted
just someone who kept talking
loud enough to drown out the past

high above the rivers
that flow out and away from you
the people you've hurt and the people you've carried
they haven't stopped trying to get through
they're still trying their hardest to reach you

leaving, you breathe upon her fragile face so carefully
the one thing you can do to keep her warm
"when you slipped away to let me sleep,
I had the most amazing dream
I knew I'd be waiting here forever
but you, you were right there with me
and god was who you thought I used to be"

high above the rivers
tracing paths back to the love you never knew
the people who left little permanent traces
they haven't stopped trying to get through
"who ever said we know where we're all headed to?"

over all the burning reels of film
projected on the houses that stand so still
over all the burning reels of film
and all the sleeping secrets that lie there still]]> 5139121 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:31:33 +0200 2020-09-18T16:31:33+02:00 4:28 https://hearthis.at/celogen/the-tall-place/ did you know right then
that weird little day had met its end?

bounding through the doors into the tall place
just to know right then
they couldn't open up again

windswept hair and misty eyes like the day it all began
oh it's still so strange
I keep this and give the rest away

and though I thought I owed you something, an apology at least
well you dropped all blame
you were finally free from pain

moonlit crocus sprouts around the tall place
and tonight you'll dream
of a room you'll swear you've seen

and by morning you will rise and you will act like nothing happened
but it is just that
I know, it is just an act

(oh, to drain this pure little road
of promise held so long ago
oh, I love you so)]]> did you know right then
that weird little day had met its end?

bounding through the doors into the tall place
just to know right then
they couldn't open up again

windswept hair and misty eyes like the day it all began
oh it's still so strange
I keep this and give the rest away

and though I thought I owed you something, an apology at least
well you dropped all blame
you were finally free from pain

moonlit crocus sprouts around the tall place
and tonight you'll dream
of a room you'll swear you've seen

and by morning you will rise and you will act like nothing happened
but it is just that
I know, it is just an act

(oh, to drain this pure little road
of promise held so long ago
oh, I love you so)]]> 5139122 no no Fri, 18 Sep 2020 16:31:30 +0200 2020-09-18T16:31:30+02:00 3:12 https://hearthis.at/celogen/dent-in-the-pillow/ you dressed in blue cotton pyjamas
the other in plain grey wool
well now you’ve finally got what you wanted
oh yeah, your heart is finally full

the phone sends vibrations through the nightstand
somebody out there needs you
but not like you need this embrace
and a gentle breeze blows in through the rafters
come to gently brush the dead skin off your face

it’s just an echo of the secrets you keep
it’s just an echo of the languages you speak
it’s just an echo of your slow release,
of your slow release

and still, the precious dent in the pillow
your parting gift before the dawn arrives

it’s just an echo of the secrets you keep
it’s just an echo of the languages you speak
it’s just an echo of a life so sweet,
of a life so sweet]]> you dressed in blue cotton pyjamas
the other in plain grey wool
well now you’ve finally got what you wanted
oh yeah, your heart is finally full

the phone sends vibrations through the nightstand
somebody out there needs you
but not like you need this embrace
and a gentle breeze blows in through the rafters
come to gently brush the dead skin off your face

it’s just an echo of the secrets you keep
it’s just an echo of the languages you speak
it’s just an echo of your slow release,
of your slow release

and still, the precious dent in the pillow
your parting gift before the dawn arrives

it’s just an echo of the secrets you keep
it’s just an echo of the languages you speak
it’s just an echo of a life so sweet,
of a life so sweet]]> 5139123 no no Sat, 07 Sep 2019 23:41:21 +0200 2019-09-07T23:41:21+02:00 3:08 https://hearthis.at/celogen/the-unreal-you/ do you call back to earth
when you know that it won’t hurt
this time for the left behind
swearing they’ve been reborn,
begging “stay a little more”,
watchful eye. when you’re stolen into dreams,
are you scared you’ll lose track
of everywhere you’ve been
this life, this life
when the flick of a lamp switch
erases memory as well as sight?

and every long, lonely night reoccurring
they’ll never know, it’s a fact they can’t change
the unreal you splits seas into currents
the gentle flows just fill with cellophane

so why don’t you stay in flight?
with so many hands upon you
can you ever know what’s right?
and when you arise, when the satellite fills your eyes
with so many hands upon you
is your graceful ascent just one long fight?

with every long, lonely night reoccurring
they’ll never know, it’s a fact they can’t change
the unreal you splits seas into currents
the gentle flows just fill with cellophane

well who’s gonna hide you?
well who’s gonna call you home?
oh you don’t seem to care,
so you must know]]> do you call back to earth
when you know that it won’t hurt
this time for the left behind
swearing they’ve been reborn,
begging “stay a little more”,
watchful eye. when you’re stolen into dreams,
are you scared you’ll lose track
of everywhere you’ve been
this life, this life
when the flick of a lamp switch
erases memory as well as sight?

and every long, lonely night reoccurring
they’ll never know, it’s a fact they can’t change
the unreal you splits seas into currents
the gentle flows just fill with cellophane

so why don’t you stay in flight?
with so many hands upon you
can you ever know what’s right?
and when you arise, when the satellite fills your eyes
with so many hands upon you
is your graceful ascent just one long fight?

with every long, lonely night reoccurring
they’ll never know, it’s a fact they can’t change
the unreal you splits seas into currents
the gentle flows just fill with cellophane

well who’s gonna hide you?
well who’s gonna call you home?
oh you don’t seem to care,
so you must know]]> 5139124 no no Sat, 07 Sep 2019 23:41:18 +0200 2019-09-07T23:41:18+02:00 4:16 https://hearthis.at/celogen/searchlight/ when the rest have left your space
a name, a heart, a spine, a face
from a blurry place
a blurry hope at breathless pace

to wake up feeling sick and tired
and to hear that it’s okay
hear what the gentle voice will say
and just melt away
to both waste the worthless day

the pictures playing in your mind
as you lock yourself inside
the promise playing in the searchlight

to count the nights since you last saw your bed
to get out the house again
and make it back by god knows when
such simple time you spend
but it winds around the bend

to find yourself wrapped in a gaze
just a gown in a haze of light
to believe it’s safe, to believe it’s right
like you’ve missed for all this time
the touch of the worthwhile kind

the pictures playing in your mind
as you lock yourself inside
the promise playing in the searchlight

to have someone sticking with you
at peace with all you’ve seen
at peace with everyone you’ve been
through a blurry scene
in your tiny, crackling dream]]> when the rest have left your space
a name, a heart, a spine, a face
from a blurry place
a blurry hope at breathless pace

to wake up feeling sick and tired
and to hear that it’s okay
hear what the gentle voice will say
and just melt away
to both waste the worthless day

the pictures playing in your mind
as you lock yourself inside
the promise playing in the searchlight

to count the nights since you last saw your bed
to get out the house again
and make it back by god knows when
such simple time you spend
but it winds around the bend

to find yourself wrapped in a gaze
just a gown in a haze of light
to believe it’s safe, to believe it’s right
like you’ve missed for all this time
the touch of the worthwhile kind

the pictures playing in your mind
as you lock yourself inside
the promise playing in the searchlight

to have someone sticking with you
at peace with all you’ve seen
at peace with everyone you’ve been
through a blurry scene
in your tiny, crackling dream]]> 5139125 no no Sat, 07 Sep 2019 23:41:16 +0200 2019-09-07T23:41:16+02:00 3:34 https://hearthis.at/celogen/let-the-poor-devils-in/ with houses built to bend
to see through sleepwalker eyes
with no gales of mist and needles
and no microwave glass burns
and no one who knows how you made up your mind

and why aren’t the hallways empty
why aren’t the doorways closed
with a “no insomniacs” sign
and does anybody notice
the silent fever spread
the shadows of those who were always inside

come on, let the poor devils in
they won’t hurt you, i don’t think
and who cares if they see through your skin

they say, “I’m sure you’ll stick with me for a long time”
they say, “I need you more than you could care to know”
they ask, “do you want me? will you keep me warm?”
I hold my tongue
as I’ve done
since I was born]]> with houses built to bend
to see through sleepwalker eyes
with no gales of mist and needles
and no microwave glass burns
and no one who knows how you made up your mind

and why aren’t the hallways empty
why aren’t the doorways closed
with a “no insomniacs” sign
and does anybody notice
the silent fever spread
the shadows of those who were always inside

come on, let the poor devils in
they won’t hurt you, i don’t think
and who cares if they see through your skin

they say, “I’m sure you’ll stick with me for a long time”
they say, “I need you more than you could care to know”
they ask, “do you want me? will you keep me warm?”
I hold my tongue
as I’ve done
since I was born]]> 5139126 no no Sat, 07 Sep 2019 23:41:14 +0200 2019-09-07T23:41:14+02:00 3:58 https://hearthis.at/celogen/safe-as-houses/ like waking from a nightmare to an empty bed
and nothing can touch you
until you fall back in

the first time you saw the headlights arrive
come breaking out the darkness to materialize
and you lay there breathing
you lay there trying to forget
pretending no one saw the fog that came
spilling endless out your head

well, I know you better
I know you better than you’d believe
and I swear, if it comes back for you
then first it has to go through me

I’ve known you forever
I know you better than you’d believe
and I swear that if it comes for you
then it’ll have to go through me

and you could curl up safe as houses
and I could seep into your past
like nothing else would ever matter
like nothing ever really has]]> like waking from a nightmare to an empty bed
and nothing can touch you
until you fall back in

the first time you saw the headlights arrive
come breaking out the darkness to materialize
and you lay there breathing
you lay there trying to forget
pretending no one saw the fog that came
spilling endless out your head

well, I know you better
I know you better than you’d believe
and I swear, if it comes back for you
then first it has to go through me

I’ve known you forever
I know you better than you’d believe
and I swear that if it comes for you
then it’ll have to go through me

and you could curl up safe as houses
and I could seep into your past
like nothing else would ever matter
like nothing ever really has]]> 5139127 no no Sat, 07 Sep 2019 23:41:11 +0200 2019-09-07T23:41:11+02:00 3:06 https://hearthis.at/celogen/chamomile-hall/ a gilded hall that crawls with spies
you glisten filled with water
and through the walls I hear your sighs

slip your shirt off
slip your shirt off
fix your hair without a sound
let the floor shift
just ignore it
you won’t find me now

I find the exit, the one thing I can climb through
the stranger in me stares blankly at the stranger in you
I seal it shut before you see I’m not there
you’ll still show up so well prepared

it was in your dreaming face
the reason why I can’t compare
how easily I fell in
and believed that I could stand to feel you there

it means nothing
it means nothing
a little mark on the life you’ve made
to lie down softly
weigh down upon me
these ghosts forever unnamed

I feel my way to the exit and I climb through
the stranger in me stares blankly at the stranger in you
I seal it shut before you see I’m not there
I’m no longer sure, no longer scared

today you’re just a gemstone
the gleam of what you leave behind
the gleam of how I wish
I never took that glimpse inside
the gleam of all you showed me
the brightest side there is to life
as it works out for you
as you’ve told me oh so many times

someone takes a shine
so you know where you’ll be staying
in your life it is so cut and dry

it never gets any easier
it never gets any easier]]> a gilded hall that crawls with spies
you glisten filled with water
and through the walls I hear your sighs

slip your shirt off
slip your shirt off
fix your hair without a sound
let the floor shift
just ignore it
you won’t find me now

I find the exit, the one thing I can climb through
the stranger in me stares blankly at the stranger in you
I seal it shut before you see I’m not there
you’ll still show up so well prepared

it was in your dreaming face
the reason why I can’t compare
how easily I fell in
and believed that I could stand to feel you there

it means nothing
it means nothing
a little mark on the life you’ve made
to lie down softly
weigh down upon me
these ghosts forever unnamed

I feel my way to the exit and I climb through
the stranger in me stares blankly at the stranger in you
I seal it shut before you see I’m not there
I’m no longer sure, no longer scared

today you’re just a gemstone
the gleam of what you leave behind
the gleam of how I wish
I never took that glimpse inside
the gleam of all you showed me
the brightest side there is to life
as it works out for you
as you’ve told me oh so many times

someone takes a shine
so you know where you’ll be staying
in your life it is so cut and dry

it never gets any easier
it never gets any easier]]> 5139128 no no Sat, 07 Sep 2019 23:41:09 +0200 2019-09-07T23:41:09+02:00 3:27 https://hearthis.at/celogen/in-a-field-by-a-river/ that has swept you away
so wide and so deep
so little chance of escape
all stretching on forever
not a blemish on the skyline
I am running to try and find you
grab a branch and pull you out
desperate to outpace the current
before it’s too late

and no one hears a word of it
no one knows a thing
and in a sudden moment
it’s clear what they believe in
in their lives there is no water
you move slowly on the earth
they’ll never see it from the inside
before the sun sets on your chance
your chance to escape this world
and rush into one you can love

from far away, I hear you say
“I can tell that you’re alone in there,
and I ⁠— I bet it must be nice
I can tell that you’re alone in there,
but I was only floating by
we’ve changed”

and when it’s all dried up, I’ll lie down
and I’ll take on nothing
as I want from the ground

and when it’s all dried up, I’ll lie down
and I’ll accept nothing
as I want from the ground]]> that has swept you away
so wide and so deep
so little chance of escape
all stretching on forever
not a blemish on the skyline
I am running to try and find you
grab a branch and pull you out
desperate to outpace the current
before it’s too late

and no one hears a word of it
no one knows a thing
and in a sudden moment
it’s clear what they believe in
in their lives there is no water
you move slowly on the earth
they’ll never see it from the inside
before the sun sets on your chance
your chance to escape this world
and rush into one you can love

from far away, I hear you say
“I can tell that you’re alone in there,
and I ⁠— I bet it must be nice
I can tell that you’re alone in there,
but I was only floating by
we’ve changed”

and when it’s all dried up, I’ll lie down
and I’ll take on nothing
as I want from the ground

and when it’s all dried up, I’ll lie down
and I’ll accept nothing
as I want from the ground]]> 5139129 no no Sat, 07 Sep 2019 23:41:06 +0200 2019-09-07T23:41:06+02:00 4:01 https://hearthis.at/celogen/a-room-with-a-view/ why should you bother trying to make it there on time?
why not take the long way round,
and leave as early as possible with no goodbyes?

a glowing cross set deep within a forest
reminds you of every loose end left untied
every smiling face with its hair falling over
with its hair still falling over its eyes

and there in that hallway full of dull fluorescent tubes
was there ever anybody who was dying to meet you?
was it ever heaven? was it ever heaven?
was it ever heaven, was it ever a room with a view?

do you wonder how it would feel
to give someone a reason to fight for you?
do you wonder how it would feel to just be seen?]]> why should you bother trying to make it there on time?
why not take the long way round,
and leave as early as possible with no goodbyes?

a glowing cross set deep within a forest
reminds you of every loose end left untied
every smiling face with its hair falling over
with its hair still falling over its eyes

and there in that hallway full of dull fluorescent tubes
was there ever anybody who was dying to meet you?
was it ever heaven? was it ever heaven?
was it ever heaven, was it ever a room with a view?

do you wonder how it would feel
to give someone a reason to fight for you?
do you wonder how it would feel to just be seen?]]> 5139130 no no Sat, 07 Sep 2019 23:41:03 +0200 2019-09-07T23:41:03+02:00 3:42 https://hearthis.at/celogen/through-this-clearing/ on some burning summer day
a garden of rocks by a sun-warmed porch
with the war against time at bay
watch the seasons take on deeper meanings for a change

come and meet me where it’s safer,
when the cavalry falls away
I'll be a place to hide the good days,
a place beneath the shade
with still such a long life left to go
with the stillness that carries you all the way home

through this clearing, I’ll be there beside you
and I can hardly wait
to see you there
with all the words drawn on your blinking face

come and find me while it matters,
before the garden comes undone
there is far too much I remember
for me to keep on playing dumb
come and find me while it matters,
admit you’re just as scared as me
so we can run off where
we can bear to see these days turn to memories
to leave the war behind in the blink of an eye
to trust for once that it’s enough we’re both alive
I won’t be straying from your side

through this clearing, I’ll be there beside you
and I can hardly wait
to see you there
with all the words drawn on your blinking face

and if they tell you you’re not worth the heartache,
well I know that’s not true
and I will use my little lifetime just to prove it to you

and through this clearing, I’ll be there beside you
I can hardly wait]]> on some burning summer day
a garden of rocks by a sun-warmed porch
with the war against time at bay
watch the seasons take on deeper meanings for a change

come and meet me where it’s safer,
when the cavalry falls away
I'll be a place to hide the good days,
a place beneath the shade
with still such a long life left to go
with the stillness that carries you all the way home

through this clearing, I’ll be there beside you
and I can hardly wait
to see you there
with all the words drawn on your blinking face

come and find me while it matters,
before the garden comes undone
there is far too much I remember
for me to keep on playing dumb
come and find me while it matters,
admit you’re just as scared as me
so we can run off where
we can bear to see these days turn to memories
to leave the war behind in the blink of an eye
to trust for once that it’s enough we’re both alive
I won’t be straying from your side

through this clearing, I’ll be there beside you
and I can hardly wait
to see you there
with all the words drawn on your blinking face

and if they tell you you’re not worth the heartache,
well I know that’s not true
and I will use my little lifetime just to prove it to you

and through this clearing, I’ll be there beside you
I can hardly wait]]> 5139131 no no Sat, 07 Sep 2019 23:41:00 +0200 2019-09-07T23:41:00+02:00 4:23 https://hearthis.at/celogen/goodnight-childsprite/ I was so focused on floating through the spring
I watched them all kiss in the distance
so painfully real, half naked and bristling
in their haven beneath the canopy
the home they built in a day
and from the outside in, they looked nothing like me
all together, so sweet and so free

I fell out of step with everyone
but they never noticed a thing
I weaved a whole world around theirs
and I never told them where I had been
but of course they couldn’t stay
they were never really there anyway
and there was only one secret they hid:
how easy it is to find love, and to let yourself in

and it’s funny,
at least I laugh because it’s true;
I still come running right back to you.



[and then comes the reply...]]]> I was so focused on floating through the spring
I watched them all kiss in the distance
so painfully real, half naked and bristling
in their haven beneath the canopy
the home they built in a day
and from the outside in, they looked nothing like me
all together, so sweet and so free

I fell out of step with everyone
but they never noticed a thing
I weaved a whole world around theirs
and I never told them where I had been
but of course they couldn’t stay
they were never really there anyway
and there was only one secret they hid:
how easy it is to find love, and to let yourself in

and it’s funny,
at least I laugh because it’s true;
I still come running right back to you.



[and then comes the reply...]]]> 5139132 no no Sat, 07 Sep 2019 23:40:58 +0200 2019-09-07T23:40:58+02:00 3:10 https://hearthis.at/celogen/perfumed-and-ready/ collapse through a dirty floor
all your friends are bored again,
they need something worth pining for
(stay down, watch the core undress
will never be put to rest)

everything deepens further than you can feel
everything touches you where you need to heal

when they turn to you for comfort now,
does it feel like you’ve won somehow?
does it feel like you’ve figured them out?
or is it the other way around,
and they’re wearing you like a crown
while they burn the whole fortress down?

soak the cityscape in ichor,
douse the streetlight’s knowing nods
coaxed from your cocoon again,
now you’re something you’re not, something somebody wants
(stay down, watch the core undress
will never be put to rest)

everyone places bets upon your skin
everyone watches you fall into the thin

when they turn to you for comfort now,
does it feel like you’ve won somehow?
does it feel like you’ve figured them out?
or is it the other way around,
and they’re wearing you like a crown
while they burn the whole fortress down?]]> collapse through a dirty floor
all your friends are bored again,
they need something worth pining for
(stay down, watch the core undress
will never be put to rest)

everything deepens further than you can feel
everything touches you where you need to heal

when they turn to you for comfort now,
does it feel like you’ve won somehow?
does it feel like you’ve figured them out?
or is it the other way around,
and they’re wearing you like a crown
while they burn the whole fortress down?

soak the cityscape in ichor,
douse the streetlight’s knowing nods
coaxed from your cocoon again,
now you’re something you’re not, something somebody wants
(stay down, watch the core undress
will never be put to rest)

everyone places bets upon your skin
everyone watches you fall into the thin

when they turn to you for comfort now,
does it feel like you’ve won somehow?
does it feel like you’ve figured them out?
or is it the other way around,
and they’re wearing you like a crown
while they burn the whole fortress down?]]> 5139133 no no Sun, 02 Dec 2018 00:45:54 +0100 2018-12-02T00:45:54+01:00 3:47 https://hearthis.at/celogen/no-bloodline/ i’m forgetting all the stories you’ve ever told
and yellowing paper is far more real than where we’ve been

hey you, are you pearl and lime?
does the sun ever kiss you to kill the time?
and did you lie awake alone last night?

hey you with your sorcerer’s soul
tell me all of the forces you thought i controlled
and when you realized you were wrong this time

look through, incandescent-eyed stare
does the keyhole leak in lost desire, and do you care?
and do these moments leave marks on tile?

how i will not wait for all you’ve seen
floating feathers taking hold of me

no bloodline, no bloodline
no doorway figures in nurturing time
no bloodline, no bloodline
when next it slips your mind]]> i’m forgetting all the stories you’ve ever told
and yellowing paper is far more real than where we’ve been

hey you, are you pearl and lime?
does the sun ever kiss you to kill the time?
and did you lie awake alone last night?

hey you with your sorcerer’s soul
tell me all of the forces you thought i controlled
and when you realized you were wrong this time

look through, incandescent-eyed stare
does the keyhole leak in lost desire, and do you care?
and do these moments leave marks on tile?

how i will not wait for all you’ve seen
floating feathers taking hold of me

no bloodline, no bloodline
no doorway figures in nurturing time
no bloodline, no bloodline
when next it slips your mind]]> 5139134 no no Sun, 02 Dec 2018 00:45:49 +0100 2018-12-02T00:45:49+01:00 4:24 https://hearthis.at/celogen/slither-away-in-secrecy/ decoded, unreal
from starry smile
to swirling vortex
when sky grants a glimpse
through thunder that’s split
and when you melt again to rise
right past my eyes

i just slither away in secrecy,
before you’ve even had to ask

that’s when the floorboards bleed
new flourishing weeds
they understand
but wish they didn’t
the rainforest runs
curled up within your lungs
i hear it beckoning
but heaven sets it right
way out of sight

i just slither away in secrecy,
before you’ve even had to ask

and when you swear to me that you’ve forgotten everything,
i believe you, oh i believe you.
and when i swear to you that i can conjure anything,
i am dreaming; oh, you’ll never hear me.]]> decoded, unreal
from starry smile
to swirling vortex
when sky grants a glimpse
through thunder that’s split
and when you melt again to rise
right past my eyes

i just slither away in secrecy,
before you’ve even had to ask

that’s when the floorboards bleed
new flourishing weeds
they understand
but wish they didn’t
the rainforest runs
curled up within your lungs
i hear it beckoning
but heaven sets it right
way out of sight

i just slither away in secrecy,
before you’ve even had to ask

and when you swear to me that you’ve forgotten everything,
i believe you, oh i believe you.
and when i swear to you that i can conjure anything,
i am dreaming; oh, you’ll never hear me.]]> 5139135 no no Sun, 02 Dec 2018 00:45:44 +0100 2018-12-02T00:45:44+01:00 3:46 https://hearthis.at/celogen/mermaid/ to drift upon the ice floe
impulses switched off,
spraypainting endless tableaux

the marble echoes,
the mirrors gently pulsate
and trembling clock-ghosts
press to their hearts all sun-shaped

two dreamers touching clouds,
electric raining down
soft twinges speak aloud,
all synchronized in sound

spun in silken weather,
legs entwined together.

reach out under twilight
feel his pulse, know he's alive
reach out under twilight,
feel her pulse, know she's alive

that's how they slipped in,
away from smoke and x-rays
and all confessions
converged to build their nesting-place

two dreamers spitting leaves
upon each other wounds
soft twinges, how they bind
and blend to something new

life looks so much better,
legs entwined together.

reach out under twilight
feel her pulse, know she's alive
reach out under twilight
feel his pulse, know he's alive]]> to drift upon the ice floe
impulses switched off,
spraypainting endless tableaux

the marble echoes,
the mirrors gently pulsate
and trembling clock-ghosts
press to their hearts all sun-shaped

two dreamers touching clouds,
electric raining down
soft twinges speak aloud,
all synchronized in sound

spun in silken weather,
legs entwined together.

reach out under twilight
feel his pulse, know he's alive
reach out under twilight,
feel her pulse, know she's alive

that's how they slipped in,
away from smoke and x-rays
and all confessions
converged to build their nesting-place

two dreamers spitting leaves
upon each other wounds
soft twinges, how they bind
and blend to something new

life looks so much better,
legs entwined together.

reach out under twilight
feel her pulse, know she's alive
reach out under twilight
feel his pulse, know he's alive]]> 5139136 no no Sun, 02 Dec 2018 00:45:39 +0100 2018-12-02T00:45:39+01:00 4:34 https://hearthis.at/celogen/the-belly-of-a-whale/ with oil and pale light
your little heart
beats blood and medicine
in the stillness of the night
the room fills up with sand
as you silently step down
and your voice is so loud
i am wrapped up,
i ignore every other sound

will you be long
in the belly of a whale?
is it wrong to call for you
in this need so lost and frail?
is it where i’m meant to stay?

the curtains drawn
reflect a waning moon
one fluttering soul
enfolds another
whirlwinds veiled in the room
a warm, drowsy smile
a head nuzzled in a chest
the right words flowing forth
not like stardust
not spilled out in a breathless mess

will you be long
in the belly of a whale?
is it wrong to call for you
in this need so lost and frail?
could you ever feel the same?]]> with oil and pale light
your little heart
beats blood and medicine
in the stillness of the night
the room fills up with sand
as you silently step down
and your voice is so loud
i am wrapped up,
i ignore every other sound

will you be long
in the belly of a whale?
is it wrong to call for you
in this need so lost and frail?
is it where i’m meant to stay?

the curtains drawn
reflect a waning moon
one fluttering soul
enfolds another
whirlwinds veiled in the room
a warm, drowsy smile
a head nuzzled in a chest
the right words flowing forth
not like stardust
not spilled out in a breathless mess

will you be long
in the belly of a whale?
is it wrong to call for you
in this need so lost and frail?
could you ever feel the same?]]> 5139137 no no Sun, 02 Dec 2018 00:45:35 +0100 2018-12-02T00:45:35+01:00 3:51 https://hearthis.at/celogen/allergic-soft-as-we-want/ this is just an attack of nerves.
you're trying to step in to iridescence
and we're barricading the door.
doesn't seem that you can hear us,
but then who are you to listen?
this is just a dizzy spell,
another allergic reaction.

i don't want to know.
i don't want to watch you glow.

chewed up and purposeful,
ripped fabric in the night.
an allergen gone so slim
from lack of want and lack of right.]]> this is just an attack of nerves.
you're trying to step in to iridescence
and we're barricading the door.
doesn't seem that you can hear us,
but then who are you to listen?
this is just a dizzy spell,
another allergic reaction.

i don't want to know.
i don't want to watch you glow.

chewed up and purposeful,
ripped fabric in the night.
an allergen gone so slim
from lack of want and lack of right.]]> 5139138 no no Wed, 22 Aug 2018 22:31:57 +0200 2018-08-22T22:31:57+02:00 4:02 https://hearthis.at/celogen/parapsychology/ how it sloshed down your shirt, drained the colour to white.
just a sucking stitch, curling up round your shins;
it was all you'd ever hoped for.

still i clung tighter than you'd ever know
to your self-sufficiency, to your phantom limbs.
oh, the nerve of every creature and force on earth
to try to move you an inch.

and you murmured

"hey, kid, don't mess with it.
you were born to be a parapsychologist.
the stars say don't fool yourself,
just a weeping winter solstice and nothing, nothing else."

well, where am i when you fall ill?
what have i done for you lately?

and i still see your sense of touch as it came undone,
glazing chandeliers, lazing in the blazing sun.
vapours alkaline strained to blend into mine,
til i saw what you really looked like.

and you murmured

"hey, kid, don't mess with it.
you were born to be a parapsychologist.
the stars say endure your health,
just a sleeping doctor's office and nothing, nothing else."

well, where am i when you fall ill?
what have i done for you lately?
your tongue map's the zodiac,
you could drink the whole cosmos down.]]> how it sloshed down your shirt, drained the colour to white.
just a sucking stitch, curling up round your shins;
it was all you'd ever hoped for.

still i clung tighter than you'd ever know
to your self-sufficiency, to your phantom limbs.
oh, the nerve of every creature and force on earth
to try to move you an inch.

and you murmured

"hey, kid, don't mess with it.
you were born to be a parapsychologist.
the stars say don't fool yourself,
just a weeping winter solstice and nothing, nothing else."

well, where am i when you fall ill?
what have i done for you lately?

and i still see your sense of touch as it came undone,
glazing chandeliers, lazing in the blazing sun.
vapours alkaline strained to blend into mine,
til i saw what you really looked like.

and you murmured

"hey, kid, don't mess with it.
you were born to be a parapsychologist.
the stars say endure your health,
just a sleeping doctor's office and nothing, nothing else."

well, where am i when you fall ill?
what have i done for you lately?
your tongue map's the zodiac,
you could drink the whole cosmos down.]]> 5139139 no no Wed, 22 Aug 2018 22:31:55 +0200 2018-08-22T22:31:55+02:00 3:29 https://hearthis.at/celogen/cranes/ no counterweight,
the shields won't split, won't sway.
you tear through textile,
swing up through space,
"i think we can coexist," you say.

from sign to sin, you win;
the porch lights on and off and on again.
oh, cosmonaut, wound up, tipped off,
sprouting out the parking lot.

push through the sealing
eyeless, reeling
smokescreen, semaphore
trace down the small of your back

rusting mirages
frozen, godless
motion medical
like you were told to, like i was told to

you're in a crane,
right and retained,
the anchor slides slowly away.
you crash so silent
through dark backyards,
and pivot back to where you start.]]> no counterweight,
the shields won't split, won't sway.
you tear through textile,
swing up through space,
"i think we can coexist," you say.

from sign to sin, you win;
the porch lights on and off and on again.
oh, cosmonaut, wound up, tipped off,
sprouting out the parking lot.

push through the sealing
eyeless, reeling
smokescreen, semaphore
trace down the small of your back

rusting mirages
frozen, godless
motion medical
like you were told to, like i was told to

you're in a crane,
right and retained,
the anchor slides slowly away.
you crash so silent
through dark backyards,
and pivot back to where you start.]]> 5139140 no no Wed, 22 Aug 2018 22:31:53 +0200 2018-08-22T22:31:53+02:00 4:37 https://hearthis.at/celogen/shiver-not-shimmer/ stripped to ribbons full in bloom,
fastened up into bruises, into stains.

and when i shut off my senses,
you're beside me in this room.
you're forever smiling, brimming with rain.

and you feel me shiver,
i don't feel you shimmer.
you know the numbing way the tape loop rings and whimpers.

and the walls they bend and shake,
and the doors they overflow.
i come open again, you crawl in and take control.

both of us are cease and desist,
tread upon like morning dew,
waiting patient for the weather to change.

and when you shut off your senses,
there's no chance you'll get away,
as the waves smash headlong into the break of day.

burst through me
blue church.
gather all the shatters
and give them a name.]]> stripped to ribbons full in bloom,
fastened up into bruises, into stains.

and when i shut off my senses,
you're beside me in this room.
you're forever smiling, brimming with rain.

and you feel me shiver,
i don't feel you shimmer.
you know the numbing way the tape loop rings and whimpers.

and the walls they bend and shake,
and the doors they overflow.
i come open again, you crawl in and take control.

both of us are cease and desist,
tread upon like morning dew,
waiting patient for the weather to change.

and when you shut off your senses,
there's no chance you'll get away,
as the waves smash headlong into the break of day.

burst through me
blue church.
gather all the shatters
and give them a name.]]> 5139141 no no Wed, 22 Aug 2018 22:31:50 +0200 2018-08-22T22:31:50+02:00 3:39 https://hearthis.at/celogen/lavender-edition/ just a sweater thread on a carpet, a contortionist.
yes, and you're a pedestal. wasn't it always this heavy?
now you hear the words he was trying so hard to say:

"well, i know you;
no, we know each other.
i know how tired you are
of the scent and the taste."

in time you will get yours, kitten.
in time you will get yours.]]> just a sweater thread on a carpet, a contortionist.
yes, and you're a pedestal. wasn't it always this heavy?
now you hear the words he was trying so hard to say:

"well, i know you;
no, we know each other.
i know how tired you are
of the scent and the taste."

in time you will get yours, kitten.
in time you will get yours.]]> 5139142 no no Wed, 22 Aug 2018 22:27:09 +0200 2018-08-22T22:27:09+02:00 4:13 https://hearthis.at/celogen/startup-tone/ 5139143 no no Sun, 18 Mar 2018 23:59:14 +0100 2018-03-18T23:59:14+01:00 0:44 https://hearthis.at/celogen/in-a-bitter-fall/ 5139144 no no Sun, 18 Mar 2018 23:59:12 +0100 2018-03-18T23:59:12+01:00 3:44 https://hearthis.at/celogen/stareshelter/ 5139145 no no Sun, 18 Mar 2018 23:59:11 +0100 2018-03-18T23:59:11+01:00 4:03 https://hearthis.at/celogen/the-escapists/ 5139147 no no Sun, 18 Mar 2018 23:59:10 +0100 2018-03-18T23:59:10+01:00 3:51 https://hearthis.at/celogen/dig-yourself-out/ 5139148 no no Sun, 18 Mar 2018 23:59:08 +0100 2018-03-18T23:59:08+01:00 4:19 https://hearthis.at/celogen/glittering-principle/ 5139149 no no Sun, 18 Mar 2018 23:59:07 +0100 2018-03-18T23:59:07+01:00 4:02